downer

For some reason I have become rather pessimistic these last couple weeks. Worrying about shit beyond my control, frustrated and at the same time belligerent, general all round mild paranoia. I thought this was why i had to take fuckin' anti-depressants. I'm attributing it to additional work stress and my upcoming treatment. But I know that's just a cop out for the parentals. Truth being my drug intake has been altered and its playing hell on me, but if I mention it to the Dr(ug peddlers) they'll just call it another side affect to be medicated for. I'm sick of fucking pills. I'm on something that works on my gut and allows a touch of normalcy. If it means being a bit edgy, I'll cope.... or maybe I'll go postal and gut someone....